A Prayer

It’s crazy how I can feel so alone even though I know you are with me…I can feel so misunderstood when I know you understand me…feeling like I have no freedom when you are my freedom….trying to live for you is harder than I thought especially when i'm sorrounded by people I can't connect with and don't understand what you are trying to do in me and what you have put in me…they’re so stuck in doing religion that they forget what it’s like to genuinely live for you ….I sometimes feel like things are closing in on me and I got to make a decision…..time is passing by ….feeling trapped within my own ….trying to follow your will seems like I would be disowning my own…if they would only understand that I’m not theirs…I belong to you…I don’t belong to them….it’s about me fulfilling my purpose in you…I prefer to follow you than them….your my everything…all my delight is in you Lord.....God when will this end?...Oh God hear my cry and respond with power so I can live freely for you without any religious torment...but only living truly by your word….God when will you move with your power?....when will you release me?...help me understand what you are trying to do in me…I’m tired of being tired….of feeling mislead and worried….I want to feel your joy once again…So I can remember how you are the God of joy, happiness and peace….God remind me of how exciting it is to live for you and live in your salvation…God dwell in me….So I can be like you and live the life you have for me…God move in this generation with power….make this generation uncomfortable and make them willing to seek your glory and not approval of man…Who will stand Lord?....Many say they will but never will….Release the Prophets, Apostles, Evangelist, Pastors and teachers of this generation/time so we can reach this world that were living in NOW…Cover this generation with a fresh anointing….Rise up men and women that will genuinely follow you for who you are and not just for what you do…for we want to know you for who you are…We want to truly know you for ourselves and not just know you by what we hear of you….God save this generation….pour out your spirit in this time…Use those that are willing to rise up for your cause….Rise up the righteous men and women.....You be the one that appoints Leaders of this time....Leaders truly set by you that no man can come against because they have been appointed by you....Leaders that will not conform to the ways of the world and the religious but who will yield to you alone and lead this generation to you...Rise up a generation of Jesus followers....not religion followers.....

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Haven't been on here in a good minute...What can I say. A lot of things have changed in so little time. I have learned that God is the only thing that will last and remain the same in my life. Even when my sorroundings and situations change...My God is still the same loving God. God is doing what I have asked him to do in my prayers and that is to put me in a postition where I have no choice but to trust and rely on him. Now i'm finding myself in that position more and more...and man it's hard and confusing at times.....because it requires to step out of my confort zone... I know this will only draw me closer to God though... I'm just trusting in God...no one knows my heart better than God does. I know he will open doors to fulfill my desires and dreams...only HE can fulfill me dreams, visions and desires.......I thank God just for being him and for existing in my life...what would I do without him?...could not even imagine

Feeling pretty accomplished

I finally got to a personal goal of mine after 9 months of hard work...it was hard but where there is a will there is a way...it made me think about how I can do anything I set my mind to...of course with the help of God...I seen so many people start something up and then quit waaay too early because there is no result or because they run out of patience....I just want to encourage anybody that you can do anything through christ that strengthens you (I'm not talking about something in particular...i'm talking about anything really).....If you really really want it...you WILL do anything to achieve it or have it....you just have to want it...it's up to you....It really all comes down to you making the decision...

Giving

When you Give.....Give without expecting to recieve anything back.....you'll save yourself a lot of disappointments...........

Just expressing

I have been inspired so much by brother Lee Stoneking.........All I can say is wow....I have heard of him but never heard him preach before until this past weekend.......I find myself feeling desperate for this generation........Stoneking was saying how it takes one generation to loose the truth.....what kind of generation are we?.......dang I mean we have let so much creep into the church.....we are starting to see bad as normal now....for example...nudity in movies....it's seemed as something normal now....I mean every movie has some in it now....we have becomed accustomed to seeing things like that.......so much to were it's not a big deal anymore...we think it dosen't affect us but it does.....or even the music on the radio.....or magazines.....we get so used to seeing sin and then start accepting it....I mean what ever happened to standing up for what we believe in.....we want to be used....EVERYbody wants to be used by God....who dosen't?........but who's is going to pay the price for it though.....very few do.....not everybody does....we have to be a living sacrifice....be not conformed this world....Jesus is coming soon....don't get caught in being a church goer or participator......we have to reach the lost....this world is dying.......Growing up all I was ever taught were rules but not how to genuinely love Jesus and have compassion for the lost....I'm pretty sure alot of you know what i'm talking about....I wish more people would wake up......really search for God.....I pray that God makes us willing to pay the price to be used......we have the power to change this world......it's all in us....

We got to be holy

Chosen....for real

I was just thinking and I started thinking about those great men of God in the Bible like Moses, Joshua, Jeremiah, Peter, Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, Joseph….etc. Those people were appointed and CHOSEN by God (not by man). They didn’t get to the “position” they were in by people they knew or organization they were in or by who their dads, uncles etc. were…know what I mean?....They really relied on God for everything. They didn’t look for people’s approval but only Gods approval. They didn’t look for fame or popularity or even to be known. They were raw with God and they didn’t have hidden intentions. Sometimes I think what if there was no apostolic assembly, organizations or church……what if all we had is God?...would there still be men and women of God eager to do his work?........would the people that were “appointed” and “chosen” as ministers still be ministers and active in the ministry?...would singers and musicians still be musicians and singers for God and have a desire to use their gift for God’s glory and will?....I want to be like Jeremiah and all those men of God in the Bible…..They didn’t need a pulpit or a known family name to be used by God….all they had was God….they heard God’s voice and were obedient…..you want to know who I respect and admire?....those men and women of God that you never hear of that are out there in the world doing God’s work….I’m not saying that there is something wrong with people that are not out there because God has a purpose for everyone’s life. I wonder and encourage to ask yourself….why do you do what you do for God?....really check yourself….I know I have…I mean for example…if you’re a musician….why are you up there?...is it because you really want to minister and be used by God to change peoples lives?....or is it because it’s just something else to do and you just do it to occupy yourself?....or maybe just because you like playing?....or to be seen up there?....be known?....all I want to be is genuine with God….don’t you?....I mean what can we hide from God…we can’t fool him…he knows our intentions…..if you are Chosen by God and you obey God and who ever God has put as your authority (pastor, youth pastor), then nothing can take away what God has given you…you’ll find yourself being in God’s favor….no matter who or what comes….I just thought I would let you guys in my mind…..It’s what I have been feeling for a long time….always wanting more from God….and wanting only having to rely on him….There’s more to God than just organized church…..let’s really search him……get deep with him…

This post is kind of all over the place…..I was just writing what came to my mind….freestyle…sick…clean

Distractions

So many people that I know can't even fully step out because of so many distractions. When I say distraction, it would be anything that stops you from getting closer to God. Anything that stops you from really stepping out. Anything that stops you from going to a deeper level in God. Know what I mean?....We got to get rid of all that suff that stops us from getting closer to God. What's your distraction?......a Girlfriend?...Boyfriend?....Friends?.....Music?...etc....you know what it is....Let go and let God do his will in your life..