Distractions

So many people that I know can't even fully step out because of so many distractions. When I say distraction, it would be anything that stops you from getting closer to God. Anything that stops you from really stepping out. Anything that stops you from going to a deeper level in God. Know what I mean?....We got to get rid of all that suff that stops us from getting closer to God. What's your distraction?......a Girlfriend?...Boyfriend?....Friends?.....Music?...etc....you know what it is....Let go and let God do his will in your life..

English Pastor, Youth Pastor, Preacher, Mentor, Friend, World Changer Eddie Zellars

I thank God for sending Eddie to our church. I really look up to Eddie in many ways. He has been a blessing in my life and soon to the whole world. Just a great guy who really believes in me. That really means a lot. I thank God that I have a youth pastor that's sensitive to the spirit and sees our potential in God. This guy right here is going to change this world. I'm glad and honored to call him a friend, mentor, youth pastor. You're the man Eddie. I got your back Eddie and look forward to developing a closer relationship with you. We are going to change this world.

Your disciple (clean) Jacob
Love you man........sick....clean

Stepping Out

I have been finding myself stepping out and doing things for God that I never thought I would do. I have really learned that it's all about faith and trusting in God. That's what it's all about in a relationship with God. Of course continous consecration (Prayer, fasting and reading of the word of God). I just started the Life group. I was hesitating in starting it because I didn't think I could do it. I never really saw myself as a leader. I'm just being honest right now and letting you guys in to know how I think and really am. So, Monday was the first Life group meeting and it was great. I loved it and can't wait for the next one. I'm really pumped up now in tag teaching the Life group with Oli....lots...haha...clean. I just taught the class on Wednesday too. I never saw myself teaching a class. I was pretty nervous that day and thought to myself.....I can't really back out now because I already said yes to Eddie. To be honest I got pretty scared because I'm trying new things. But how would I ever find out if I never tried it....right? The old Jacob always tries to come back. The old Jacob is that guy who you never saw speak up and step out of the ordinary. The guy who never really did anything for God. The guy who always waited for someone to lead him or push him to do something for God. I was confused for a while in who I was (Like everybody else when they hit my age). But I found myself in God. God has shown me how he sees me, and it's crazy...unbelievable. Even when I didn't know what was my purpose......God already had a purpose for me. How he sees me is something that I would of never saw in myself. I understand why God made me the way I am. God is so great. He's so perfect and knows what he is doing. All this time I was stopping myself from growing. Sometimes not forgiving myself would be what would stop me. I knew God forgave my sins but I still din't believe it. I couldn't understand how God's love could be so great. How he could love someone like me. How he could even listen to me when I pray. God has revealed his love to me. I now really understand it and can live in his freedom. I encourage you guys to start stepping out in whatever you feel God has called you to do. I'm going to do it. Yes it's scary and uncomfortable but God is with you. START STEPPING OUT....you're not alone.....I'm right beside you. Let's do it.....Change This World.

Drums.......

Ever since I was a little kid I remember loving the drums. I always had a deep passion for playing the drums. Even when I was singing in the Sanctuary Choir. All those years I wished I was playing the drums. I remember one day feeling so desperate and asking God why did he put this desire in me if I couldn't even play the drums at church and really had no where to play. All along deep inside I knew God had called me to do this. So all those years any of you remember me singing in the choir....my heart was really towards the drums. I remember starting to play at the senior center when the "viejitos" would have services on Thursday nights. Dang that was a while back.....my Uncle Apodaca was in charge of those services. Well I started playing there. Then little by little God started opening doors. The band Secondmile started. So that was another opportunity for me to start playing the drums. So I took it. That took off and that was the band that I played for a couple of years. Then little by little I started playing in church on Tuesday English services......you guys remember that?......sick...Then I started playing Thursday spanish services and then I started playing for English services on Sundays back when Bro. Herrera was in charge of those services. So little by little God started making a way for me. Then I remember when Paco called me to fill in for a District Choir practice when Beto couldn't make it. I was like dang for real?....I was all nervous....(I mean it was a practice...not a big dea...right?). I never told anyone this but ever since I was a little kid I always had visions and dreams of me playing for the district choir. I didn't even play drums when I was having these visions and dreams. I felt it so strongly though. I knew God had called me to do it. Then when Paco asked me if I could be the drummer for the district choir....I said yes but in my mind I was like what the heck....me?.....like who am I?...I'm a nobody.....The Bible says.....Psalms 34: 7....Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. That's nothing but he truth. God saw my desire and all I could do is serve him and be patient. God saw what I desired too. It was not just to be THE drummer of the DISTICT choir and to be known or popular. My desire was always to minister in a powerful way through music. I dont want glory, credit, fame or popularity because the talent I have is because of God and him alone. This gift I have is from him and all I can do is give it back to him. That's why I have promised God that I would play for him only. Nobody else. What business does a christian musician have playing for secualr artist that sings music that dosent glorify God?....none in my book. I could care less of playing for a big artist. I used to think that way for a while. I wanted to make it big and play for all the big gigs. God has changed an molded me. All I want to do now is reach and change this world for Jesus through the ministries and gifts that God has given me. I cherish this gift that God has given me. I don't take it lightly. God has opened some doors for me to play and for you those opportunities may not be a big deal but for me it is. I don't deserve it at all but God still blesses me and all I can do is glorify him and worship him. Now you know how I feel about playing drums. So whenever you see me up there....now you know....you may not see it in my face but just know that I love offering up my praise to God with my drums.....I pray that when I play my focus is always to please him with my gift and not man. I thank God for putting musicians in my life like Lucas, Paco and Vic......dang these guys have really helped me out musically and spiritually. They took me under their wing and have taught me a lot of things. Part of how I play is because of them. They are sick...clean... It's always a priviledge to play with these guys. I see it as a priviledge to play period. Whether it's at a practice, a service or a concert. Wherever it is. I just love playing for God. Dang I wrote alot...lots....lotss....lots....so what....it's my blog.....haha....clean...sick....lates